There are several dark sides to anxiety - well known ones at that. The depression, self-harm, panic attacks. I could go on but that’s not quite the dark side I’m talking about. I’m talking about nightmares. Or rather bad dreams. Apparently, the difference between a nightmare and a bad dream is nightmares wake you up,… Continue reading The Dark Side of Anxiety
My garden is in my house, guys. I should have known better...getting all plant-happy and banking on continually warm weather. News flash, Minnesota is not a continually warm weather kind of state. Due to plunging temperatures going under freezing, all plants were carried inside while fighting off an overzealous goat to keep him out of… Continue reading Hot Smoke and Sassafras
Gardening is something I haven't done in for-ev-er. Goats make it impossible. A little public service announcement....goats will get out and they will destroy everything and the garden goes first. So with the goats always besting every attempt I make at keeping them in (though this year we've been pretty successful...famous last words) I decided… Continue reading Garden Therapy
That title...is sarcastic as hell. There is nothing about a 3 a.m. panic attack that's fun. Especially when it's a mother of a panic attack. My amazing husband, to his credit, remained calm even in the midst of me seriously starting to freak out. I've read plenty of articles saying that when people are going… Continue reading 3 a.m. Panic Attacks are Awesome!
So, readers…how are you? Hanging in there? Stress eating? Two fisting your beer by 2pm on a Wednesday? Is it Wednesday? Oh…right…it is. Wait…no it’s not. It’s Thursday. To quote my new favorite YouTuber Brandon Farris….Jear Desus. I don’t know about you guys but for me 2020 has been kind of a beyond hot mess… Continue reading Stress with a Side of Pandemic
Hey followers! No, not dead. Not sick. Hopefully it'll remain that way but with the way things are spreading, who's to say how long that will last. I've been struggling to find things to blog about because my minds been in a state of numbness over the past month and a half. It's hard to… Continue reading A Quick Check In
I was prepared to sit down and let loose a bleeding heart diatribe that has become...to be very honest...familiar. Painfully familiar. Not from me, necessarily. Granted, I’ve had my moments where I’ve been brutally honest about the problems I’ve faced but overall, I don’t spend a whole lot of time being “vulnerable.” And then I… Continue reading Authentically not Vulnerable in 2020
It's been a week...and it's only Tuesday. This week started out on a serious high which could be why I'm crashing so bad right now. I opened up a novel I'm working on to crowdfunding which, in itself, is extremely anxiety provoking. I usually hang onto my work until it's finished. At work, I'm constantly… Continue reading It’s Okay to Not Care
I had the best laid plans for getting this post done over the weekend...and week..and a week after that intended day to post. But turns out that a week back to work after a summer off and a switch to an entirely different work setting the following week with it's own rules and regulations to… Continue reading Guilt, you’re on the bench…Anxiety, you’re up!
Okay followers, like I said in my previous post, I’m going to work harder at being more consistent with my posts. Of course, they probably won’t have much direction...a reflection of my scattered brain. Seems fitting, right? Last week was a quiet one but we were making some adjustments on our modest farmstead. My parents,… Continue reading Bucolic