Writing

Another NaNoWriMo

Another November, another National Novel Writing Month. This will be the 5th time I’ll make an attempt to finish a novel. I’m currently sitting at a little over 28k words on a novel I’ve been working on forever. Okay, four years…not forever. But still. That’s a long time to be working on a book. I’ve always wanted to be one of those people who’s able to crank out 50k in one month.

This has gotten in the way, that has gotten in the way, kids, cleaning, work, on and on the list has gone. You know what that list is? It’s a list of excuses not to be achieving a dream.

It’s easy to make those excuses; Easy to look at what you’re doing and think “Oh my gosh, this is all too hard. There’s other things I can do. Other things that are easier. Mundane things that don’t require me to think or…to feel like I’m failing.”

I think doing all those easier things has put me where I am today — 38 and not doing what I want to be doing. Not entirely. Am I working with kids struggling who need to know that someone out there believes in their ability to do great things because that’s what my parents did for me? Yup, and I love it. Truly love it. It’s beyond rewarding even in the stressful, bleak moments.

But that writing gig…that thing I’ve been thirsting for, starving for since I was sixteen…I keep getting in the way of that and letting myself get in the way of that. So, here we go. Another NaNo…hopefully to conquer.

The difference this time around is unexpected. Seriously unexpected. The support of the students I work with….their interest…when they ask questions on whether or not they can read what I’ve written…I don’t get why it’s inspiring me to pick up the pace and accomplish my goal, but it is. There’s a new fire of determination. It’s like I’m surrounded by positive forces encouraging me to do what I should be doing. And they probably don’t even realize they’re doing it.

Not that my friends and family haven’t been inspiring. My mom has been incredible in her insistence that I get this book written and (God willing) published.

But these kids…these troubled teens with unfortunate histories that hopefully won’t repeat themselves…they’re inspirational on a level that I clearly needed. I should probably tell them that…every day. Maybe it’ll help them see what I see in them; kids capable of change, capable of doing great, positive things without even trying.

If I can pull off this NaNo thing this month…it’s all because of them.

And if I can get people interested in my side project, all inspired by them, that’s an added bonus. I’m excited about it, they’re excited by it and it’s SUPER fun to write.

If you’re interested and want to support my writing endeavors…no pressure…check it out!

Army of Outlaws: https://www.patreon.com/user?u=716833

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